The HARD thanksgiving

in the face of terminal sickness of family friends and family, in the face of watching others follow the path the Lord sets before them, which unfortunately leads them away from me, in the face of being faithful to what the Lord has asked of me even when it's not pleasant, in the face of financial discomfort and stress that is heavy......

I try to take a breath and still give thanks. Give thanks. For all......

....suddenly, today, I am blindsided by the announcement that my lead pastor is leaving our church in the next couple of months and all I can do is cry and wonder what that will mean for me....for my family. Do we stay at our church because it's where we go...or is God using this and other changes to lead us in a new direction, and if so: where, when?

.....what other unpleasant, hard, heavy things are waiting for me right around the corner? 

Will I have the strength----the weakness to cling to the Lord? To wait on Him? To continue to give thanks even when it's hard?