Childhood Memories Re-visited!

Liam looking into the "Hollow Log"
Mommy and Liam in front of the "Hollow Log"
In "Cedar Mansion" (aka "Cedar Park")
Walking the path
In the wood shed

Why?

So, since about October I feel like I've stepped into an alternate dimension where I'm stuck in a nightmare and I can't get out of it.
People I love dearly are crumbling into pieces and I have no way of helping or making it all better.
It seems like every day something new happens and it all just gets worse.
There are some moments I feel like there is no way my heart can break any more than it already has...and then something else comes ripping through it and I realize there was actually more to break than I thought.

At this point, all I can do is look to my Savior and sob, "why?"
And, in the midst of the ever increasing darkness and in the midst of my heart breaking ever more, I feel His love surround me and comfort me and I know His heart is breaking too.
Because, this isn't what He wanted to have happen either.